Right now I feel in a time of contraction.
We’re entering an eclipse portal. Lunar and solar eclipses revealing themselves in the sky this month. It feels like a deep purge. Issues magnified, personal and collective themes expanded, and then released. Or maybe not yet released.
Eclipses often act like cosmic mirrors. They pull hidden truths into the light, strip away what no longer has substance, and shake loose the illusions we cling onto. Sometimes they arrive with endings, sometimes with radical beginnings, and right now I feel both coexisting in a paradoxical way. But amidst tis time of major chaos and sh*it hitting the fan, I feel a certain sense of inner peace, of trust. I am here to cocreate with life after all. These portals can feel like a forced pause, an invitation to observe, to feel, to release before returning to a slightly altered reality thereafter, renewed, lighter, and empowered.
We often want to fast-forward to the part where we feel better after being ill, to reconciliation after a fight, to rebuilding once a storm has passed. And yet, sometimes the magic, our own strength, resilience, and capacity to choose love reveal themselves in the moments of discomfort, in the pause, in the eye of the storm, in the recovery.
The moments where grief, fear, even hopelessness take over.
And in this space of contraction I also feel the possibility of expansion. It isn’t here yet, but I invite with gratitude what is felt in the present.
It’s as though I can sense the quality of what is to come, and yet it hasn’t begun. Call it the oracle-like sensation of day one of my menstrual cycle. A perfect time to pause, return to the present, quiet the noise, and listen to the voices within and around.
Day one always feels like an inner threshold. My body softens, slows, demands rest. My womb sends me messages of pain through cramps as a reminder to connect within, as a reminder of the shedding that is taking place. The veil between inner and outer worlds gets more permeable, and intuition comes to me more freely, sometimes through dreams, sometimes through simple whispers in my body. There is a clarity that requires me to receive what wants to be seen. To observe:
What am I releasing?
What did I achieve this past cycle? What intangible processes did I journey through?
And then beyond the “I”, What is the Earth saying?
The world is not out to get us. But our minds are programmed to remain in fear, to believe the ego is the center of reality. When in truth, as fellow writer Ernie Vecchio shares in Holistic Healing, our heart is our compass.
The most empowering thing we can do is restore our connection to the heart, instead of guiding life with the mind. As Deepak Chopra would ask: “Who am I?” “What am I?” Or, as I would ask: “What is my heart beating for?”
The fact is: my heart beats. Not for anything. It just does.
And as I close my eyes midway through these words, all I feel is the pulsation of my heart. I feel this constant expansion and contraction. I sense love radiating from my being in this very moment.
I sense a love that wants to say: “I see you, your whole self, your fears and doubts, your darkness, your light, your strength, your toxic thoughts, and I love it all, truly. I love it all because there is no other way possible for me than to love each and every one of you for who you are, for what you reflect back to me, for the way you exist as a part of the world.”
I truly do.
And so, I will spend more time with this feeling.
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